Challenging week

To say this week has been a very long week is an understatement. Challenging is more like it. It all started with the continued vomiting, I couldn't even keep water down. It got so bad that I was not only vomiting up the anti nauseant medication I was taking but just looking at a pill I had to take would make me gag. By Wednesday I had no clue how I'd get through the week. I asked my Husband to get me some Glucerna, thinking I could get some liquid nourishment into me. It was a wonderful thought while it lasted. Anything that went in was coming right back out. I couldn't take it. If I sat up or stood up I felt like I was going to throw up, and most often I did. So I was spending 18-20 hr's a day in bed. If I wasn't at an appointment, I was in bed. My stomach was never fully settled but it felt less queasy this way. A problem to that was that my head was started to hurt because of all of the pressure I was putting on it. *sighs* Not to mention I ended up missing radiation sessions due to vomiting.

I was so ready to just pack it in. I was walking to my appointments with my "barf bucket" in hand, I literally looked like the walking dead and I felt even worse. I know the Chemo is kicking my ass, severely. And so I really want to stop that portion of the treatment, but I have been chasing that Dr down to speak to him to have my questions addressed to see if we can work on it or whether I'm just ending it. I saw my Oncologist yesterday for an assessment and he sent me right over to the E.R. I spent 10 hrs there to be told I was severely dehydrated and get several litres of IV pumped into me, including some amazing anti nauseant. I left with a few prescriptions and back to see my Oncologist today. Though I gotta say, having all of that liquid in my body has allowed me to feel a lot better. I feel like I can actually function today for the first time in over a week. AND I actually had real food and it stayed where it's suppose to!

So I show up to my radiation appointment and they asked if I took my Temodal. "No. I'm not taking anymore Chemotherapy until I have a face to face with Dr. Torres". I was told that I needed permission from my Radiation Oncologist that I could have my radiation without having taken my chemo before they'd do it. Ummm are you serious? lol I don't want to take the chemo and you're telling me I need a Dr's note to go ahead with the other portion of the treatment? Whatever. So I went to that clinic earlier today and spoke to my Oncologist and he's cool with it. He knows where I'm sitting with everything, how my experience has been so incredibly horrible, and how I want some solid answers from the other Dr before another ounce of poison goes into my body.

It's the start of a long weekend, so I have 3 nice days to rest at home and just enjoy not being around a medical facility, poked, prodded, or worrying about treatment. And that's exactly what I intend to do.

~Tara