Wait, Stress, Repeat.

I really need to figure out how to get a handle on my stress, and I think returning to the gym is going to be the way to go. I'm itching to get back to the gym but I hate the thought of joining and potentially having to cancel my membership within the next 4-8 weeks due to surgery because my surgery in 2010 had me out of commission for a year. Well, for bending over and lifting anything over 5 lbs, etc, so it would kind of render the gym useless if surgery were my route The only good news if you can call it that, is that today I did speak with my surgeon's secretary. She informed me that my file has been triaged but since the Doctor has been off for a few days due to the holiday weekend he hasn't even had a chance to look at it. I hope to receive a phone call soon after he's looked at it and hopefully get this next phase underway. For now, I wait.

~Tara

It Is What It Is

As I sit here staring out the window peering into the grey sky as the rain falls, I have the chorus of "To Love Somebody" by Blue Rodeo blasting in my ear. "You don't know what it's like, you don't know what it's like, you don't know what it's like...." eventually those lyrics are followed by, "to love somebody, to love somebody, the way I love you." A beautiful song by an amazing Canadian band. Music is the one thing that has carried me through the years, and I'm leaning towards during this new battle. I will admit though, that with the latest revelation of a new tumour in a new location in my brain I'm feeling a little more than defeated.