It Is What It Is

As I sit here staring out the window peering into the grey sky as the rain falls, I have the chorus of "To Love Somebody" by Blue Rodeo blasting in my ear. "You don't know what it's like, you don't know what it's like, you don't know what it's like...." eventually those lyrics are followed by, "to love somebody, to love somebody, the way I love you." A beautiful song by an amazing Canadian band. Music is the one thing that has carried me through the years, and I'm leaning towards during this new battle. I will admit though, that with the latest revelation of a new tumour in a new location in my brain I'm feeling a little more than defeated.

I've never claimed to know more than Doctors, and I never will, but I feel I know a little bit about my body they might not. Anyone that knows me knows I'm not a trusting person, so it's really hard for me to put my life in the hands of someone else, especially when that person had me stewing in my juices awaiting tests for 6 weeks while my tumour grew 1/4". I know that 1/4" might now seem like a lot, and that you're getting a measuring tape out right now, but  it's a big deal to me. It's my head. It's my life and it pisses me off.

I'd love to explore cannabis oil, but like many others, it isn't an option due to cost, so I've decided, at least for now, to see what results I can get going full throttle with the ketogenic die, and by incorporating certain supplements into my daily life. I'm still working out the exact dosages of the supplements, but right now my daily regimen looks like this:

5000IU Vitamin D3

1000mg Vitamin C

1000mg Tumeric

1000mg Boswellia Serrata Extract

600mg Aged Garlic Extract

300mg Grape Seed Extract

Tomorrow I call my surgeon's office and go from there. There isn't much I can do, it is what it is.

~Tara